Friday, April 30, 2010

That face...

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Yep.... this face is exactly why I am caving into my husband's child-like intense begging to get a dog. I get this email, and all it says is "awwwwww...." We go get her on Sunday. There is going to be a cat uprising in my house, I fear. Details and pictures to come soon! As well as a name... I am rooting for Brylee (Bry-lee) or Katie. What can I say, I give my animals human names (well, except for Ladle, because he came that way...)


p.s. Pray that I don't have to get ugly when Jason wants it to sleep in bed with us Sunday night. I may resort to camping in the kitty compound (aka, the guest room)

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

wondering...


I am wondering.... just wondering. Maybe it will turn into a story...

Saturday, April 17, 2010

A rainy day writing extravaganza...



So, this is the picture I was commissioned to write about in a current writing contest. Here is what I have come up with so far... not entirely, and wholly in absolute love with it, but... it is a start. I was writing today--For 4 hours straight. So it's fiction. Who cares! The bug has bitten, and I like it.



The leaves skittered over the ground, dancing as the wind carried them under a mosaic-tiled heaven. This place held so many memories. He carried me as if I was weightless when we danced that night. So much passion in the air, you could cut it with a knife. It was an odd place to hold a wedding reception I told her, but she didn’t care. It was stunning. Gorgeous. Mystical. It was as if time could stand still in this place; she could preserve her happiness, the memory of her wedding day, in a jar.

Snow blanketed the countryside, and it looked as if we may be trapped inside forever. I hate winter in New England. It plagues me to think what could have possessed me to move here from Texas-- The sweltering heat of the summer there is just as bad as this white winter hell.  My best friend Lindsey was visiting from Houston, and I was glad for her company. I had just recently divorced a supremely toxic terror. I was a free bird, but my wings felt clipped. Lindsey was a prima donna. I am quite sure I was the only one she went to for help with this wedding. She loved Central Park, and had aspirations of getting married there some day.  I told her she was moonstruck if she thought a nightly affair in that place was safe. I had seen the news, and often it was enough to make me jump out of my skin, but it was her ordeal, and I didn’t want to rain on her parade.

We visited the park, once the snow had started to melt, waltzing to Belvedere Castle, Shakespeare’s garden and every single other place one might think of having a wedding. She was about to wear me out. The trip was about to thankfully end when we stumbled upon Bethseda Terrace. Its Greco-Roman ambiance reminded me of our wine trip to Tuscany when we graduated college. “This is it!” she shouted at me and gripped my arm so tight it almost bled. “Freaking chill!” I winced, and we both broke into laughter. It really was perfect for her. Her fiancĂ© had connections in New York, and it would be no problem to close it down on a weekday. The ceremony would be right by the fountain, just an eye shot away from this gorgeous grotto. The blues in the ceiling tiles would complement the ocean that was her eyes. I was always jealous of those.

The next few months flew by like minutes as we narrowed it down to the final detail.  I was most excited to sink my teeth into the food. We had eaten at just about every restaurant in town, when I finally decided to call Carrie, my ex-sister in law, to run in a favor. I hated every second I dialed the number to Aureole, the upscale restaurant she had pride in doing accounting for. The sad part to it all was Lindsey, Carrie and I used to be best friends in our younger days. In fact, Carrie is how I met Steven, the husband from the deepest pit of hell. Terrible memories swarmed me as I thought of this, one ring… two rings… three rings… I was about to hang up when I heard her voice. “Charlie Palmer’s Aureole—This is Carrie Drews in accounting,” my heart felt like a giant brick of ice. “Hey, Care… it’s uh, Kate. Listen, I know this may be awkward, but Linds is getting married, and we were wondering if you could strike a deal and cater the wedding?” Thump. Thump. Thump… faster and faster my heart was beating, and she wasn’t giving me an answer. Static and silence consumed my ears. It was deafening. “So! Little miss thing is getting hitched finally,” she snickered devilishly, “Well, I imagine after the way my prick of an older brother treated you, I at least owe you a bit of something, considering it was my fault you fell in love with his dumb ass in the first place.” Carrie and I weren’t exactly speaking since the divorce and the trial. It wasn’t as if we were bitter with each other, but once Steven was tried for manslaughter, the whole family sort of crumbled apart. He was their shining star. “I don’t feel like you owe me anything,” I managed to get out, “I just want to make sure I don’t suck ass as a maid of honor.” She laughed that old familiar laugh, and it made me smile. Her laughter was the best medicine back in those days. Lindsey, Carrie and I would stay up for hours and make jokes just to hear her laugh. There were several sofas almost ruined because it never failed someone ended up wetting their pants. “Alright,” she sighed with resolution, “I’ll do it.  But don’t think this is some kind of reconnection or a rekindling of some sort. I am purely doing it out of memory for an old friendship.” What kind of shitty response was that? I thought to myself. I would take it though, and roll with the punches, just like I had done for too many years.

Lindsey’s wedding day was nothing short of breathtaking. I have never seen a more gorgeous bride, even when staring at the mirror and looking at myself the day I decided to take the plunge 6 years ago. The reception came, and the food was heavenly. Carrie pulled through, just like I hoped she would. Lindsey set me up with a friend of a friend named Gavin, a debonair angelic-looking piece of human perfection. I was almost scared to say yes to her when she told me her plot. Apparently Gavin was going to be attending the wedding without a date, and she felt he would be just the thing to get my mind off of my horrid past and start over. This guy was supposed to be the missing feathers to make my wings spread and fly. I would be seriously lying if I said my body did not turn into melting butter in his hands. I was lustfully, sinfully, insanely in love with this man at first sight. His raven hair and piercing eyes lured me into the sea like a Siren.

 We danced the night away; his hand firmly molded to the small of my back like it was a part of my own body. Lindsey watched gleefully from her table, smiling like she just won the lottery. She was right… I was flying. Flying right into a place I didn’t need to. It was too soon, but when you are lost in the moment, everything wrong seems right. We left the reception for a moonlit walk around the park. For a place that seemed to be so scary to me at night, I was fearless as I walked hand in hand with my newfound knight in shining armor. The stars glittered the water and sparkled like diamonds as we shared a stolen kiss. “I have never loved anyone more than I love you at this moment,” he whispered to me, “Nothing can be more perfect than this.” I was scared for a second, and then started to fall deeper and deeper into the spell he was casting over me.  What could possibly go wrong tonight? Tonight was the first night in a long time I felt free. 

The next morning, I awoke to the sounds of loud voices and sirens. Someone screamed, “I am with NYPD move out of my way!” All around me the fountain was raining red with my blood, and my prince had disappeared.  I sat up to meet my mangled body, and it was that moment I realized I was dead.  Here I sit on this staircase, staring back into this terrace, where my soul is forever trapped. Day after day and I try to remember the details of the night I was flying. The memories always seem to fade with the dawn, so when the moon is set and the stars are perfectly aligned, I go to that place of the stolen kiss and try to remember. Remember everything. Sometimes I hear his voice again as he leaned into me and said, “Steven says hello…” and everything fades into black. 

Friday, April 9, 2010

ABC's of today...

Alarm clock goes off at 6:00 am
But I didn't want to wake up...
Cozy in my bed I was, and Jason was still snoring away.
Dazed, I turned off the alarm and snuggled deeper under the covers...
Eventually, I resorted to kicking myself out of bed.
FRIDAY! I shouted, so excited. That means Jeans DAY!
Good lord this tile is cold! I thought as I trod into the bathroom to start my morning routine...
Happily I sauntered into the kitchen, where I fed my screaming cats.
Is it really time to get up? Or can I just go back to sleep?
Jason! I scream... You have GOT to get out of bed! It is almost 6:30!
Kicking and screaming, he finally awakes.
Loudly, he protests also going to work today.
Men, I thought... can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em.
Now it was almost 6:45... I had to leave to go to work...
Oh how I needed some Starbucks this morning! I owed it to myself.
Peddling it to the metal I headed to my destination
Quickly I ordered a ham breakfast sandwhich and a tall bold blend coffee, with a little cream please.
Racing down 71, I made it to WMS.
Sweetly greeted by the smell of Kim-Chee, I knew it was Korea studies time in Pawpaw Patterson's room.
Time to teach!
Under the radar, I concealed my bad hair day, by sporting my pomeranian hair-do
Victory is mine!!! 3:25 has arrived!
Whisking myself off to a much needed weekend...
eXamining myself as a writer...
Yearning to be published...
ZZZZZzzzzz.... A dreamer can dream? Can't she?

Monday, April 5, 2010

I affirm you... clap, clap, clap.

It is so good to have people in your life that help you live your dream. I SUPER heart a certain soup maker (you know who you are...) that is fostering my inner writing self. She kicked my butt and started my writing craze once upon a December day. She has kept me on my toes and checked in to make sure I am doing it... then today, gave me a book about "how to get published." It pains me knowing someday soon I may have to leave that school to be at one closer by. I know I still have one year left in me... Could I just pack her in my things and bring her to my new school? Super LOVE. xoxo

Friday, April 2, 2010

I miss having friends close by...

What is it about a glass of wine and a porch that is so magical? I am reminiscing about years gone by, where all it took was a glass of wine, a porch, and great friends to make for a great time. Laughing, laughing, laughing... with a black lab named Harley, and some antique lawn chairs. What happened to those times? I graduated college, got a professional job, and got married. Why does that have to change things? I have that same glass of wine, my own porch now... but those friends are just memories that sit there with me, living distances away. I laugh with myself, and wonder... if I stop remembering, will you go away? The breeze blows, and a sit in my own little world. Remembering those good times. Come friend, come on over... you can sit on my porch. The wine is cold, and the sun is shining. I have some gossip to share with you...